There is a true deficit in public education and we all know that our culture is morally corrupt. This fact is no different today than it was 50 years ago. Therefore, it cannot be my *reason* for homeschooling. Still, I am grateful for how these negatives have encouraged me to seek what God has said on the matter. Certainly the "deficit" may appear worse and the culture seems in further decline, however, I believe it is all relative. God has never changed, nor has His word.
"Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates."
Deuteronomy 6: 4-9
I guess you could say that I allowed tradition to trump scripture. Preschool is what you do with your kids when they turn three. Kindergarten is what you do with your kids when they turn five. I did the next thing. And then the next thing. Without ever really considering the benefits, the repercussions, the possibilities.....the spiritual cost. I mean....I turned out okay.
Don't you love that argument? When did I start settling for "okay" for my kids? When was I the litmus test? Haven't I always searched for the best for these children? Their doctor, their dentist, their bedtimes? Appropriate dress, television, and music? Safe play dates, backyards, and booster seats? How did school fall into this abyss where I accepted things as they are? Total apathy if you ask me now. Of course, if you asked me then I would have climbed to the top of my soapbox and proudly proclaimed all the ways I was attempting to make a difference. The problem was....is....and will forever be this: The school is not responsible for teaching biblical truth. I am. They are also not responsible for teaching biblical values. I am. Oh yeah. That whole biblical worldview? My job as well. How could I do this with a measly quarter of their day? I am getting the leftovers. It just doesn't make sense.
There was always a sense deep down that something didn't make sense. There were a plethora of people in my life who were homeschooling. I picked them apart. How could that make sense? Now...when I stand on the Word of God I cannot see how it does *not* make sense.
I have to be careful to cut this post off because it could quickly turn into a rambling conversation where there is no second party and therefore....makes no sense. I will end where I started. I believe that my responsibility to teach my children doesn't end when they are five. I believe it is a biblical mandate to teach your children the Word of God....above everything else. Everything. Not one thing should take precedence. Not socialization, not high level trigonometry, and not my freedom. Once I surrendered to that truth there came a realization that I could not possibly adhere to this teaching with such time constraints and outside influence. Public education would not work for me. Ever again.
Thank you God for using so many people that point to You and give glory to You through their obedience. Thank you for the deplorable situations in the public school system because they also pointed me to You....and the Word. Thank you for the sadness in my heart every time I sent them away because I now know it was directing me to Your Way. Thank you God for the longing that you have given me for homeschooling....even before I knew it was a possibility. Amen.