Thursday, December 17, 2009

Still here ...

Treading water ... with what feels like weights on my ankles at times. Much thanks to my girlfriends for putting up with the hormonal flood of emotions. Thanks to my husband for feigning a look of understanding over my complete meltdown regarding a certain person's bedtime even though understanding was the last thing I needed ... more like a swift kick in the pants.

Or maybe a full nights sleep.

Or maybe both.

Anyway, the parts of the day that seem doable are showing up a little more often than not. That's a good thing.

The parts of the day that seem overwhelming and unbearable ... well, they are really overwhelming and I am downright unbearable.

So the truth is that I am quite ready for Christmas (all gifts bought) and we even stayed up way too late last night to bake gifts for teachers and friends (co-op today). The tree is up and most of the decor, which I thought might not make it this year.

Baby girl is beautiful and sweet except for between the hours of 7-9 pm.

Then she is just beautiful ... in a howling cat sort of way.

Dad does a splendid job of taking over and has mastered a STOMP AROUND THE HOUSE WHILE BOUNCING VIGOROUSLY method and making SHHHHH noises that she seems to love!

It sounds crazy but it really works. I just don't have the energy for all the shhh-shing and stomping so I'm glad he's up for it ;)

When he takes her, I usually head up for my nightly granny bath and listen from upstairs and try not to cry over the whole blessed event.

It is a season. I know this ebb and flow well. Just like this holiday season, I will miss it when it's gone and during the entire process I struggle to keep my heart focused on the right thing.

So in an effort towards keeping traditions without losing our minds, we have grand thoughts of doing the Christmas Card pic this afternoon.

Your prayers are greatly appreciated ;)

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Sophia said...

We are praying every day for you.
This too shall pass. I wish I was there to help in any way.


Lottie said...

OH my sweet & precious friend... COLIC is the original version of stinky!!! Abbi had it & I swore I had broken her... Clara is just trying to get her daddy time soaked in real good & ya know it wears off about that time everyday... (ha)! But seriously I will DEFINATELY continue to pray for you all! MUCH LOVE! xoxo

lori said...

I have been thinking of you...thank you for your honesty and humor! You always make me laugh with your posts. Praying for endurance and joy during this hectic season of life! Love to you.

Leslie said...

You are an amazing woman! I admire you so much. Dads are amazing at the stomp, bounce, ssshhh. :)

Jennifer Juniper said...

You can do it! It's so hard when you don't get enough sleep, but just remember...this too shall pass.